day one.

i'm reading old msg histories on msn.

i lied. i saw him die right in front of me, it scared me that i didn't dare tell anyone about it. i'm sorry. i can still see the moment he stopped moving, dear god.

still no calls, though it's only been a day. i really don't want things to go sour, especially with the time running low. why does it keep happening to us? is it really my fault all the time? tell me that is so and i will back out and not cause u any more pain.

and to li, love the masuk air sessions we have. darus still brings mixed feelings to me actually. i love you baby.

and i love you too. just hoping that u can see it.